Stephanie

Have you ever had the feeling you're a "jack of all trades, master of none?" That's how I've felt lately. I have a lot of friends who are really good at or have a great interest in one particular thing, whether it is sports, music, computers, whatever. I have a lot of things I am interested in, but not anything that I care deeply enough about to really specialize in it. I don't know if that is part of the female mindset or what. I usually end up devoting little bits of time here and there to several things than a lot of time to one thing. I think that's why I could never be really big into playing Halo or anything like that. It takes a lot of dedication to get good at it, and I wouldn't be willing to devote hours a day to playing a video game.

I think in general, I am feeling the need to shake things up a bit around my life, though. I'm pretty happy with the way things are currently, but for some reason I feel like I need to make some changes. I'd love to get out on my own into my own place, for instance. I'd like to start making more road trips, maybe even by myself a few times. My job is okay but I feel less motivated here than I used to, and I sleep less than I used to but I still want to go out more. I feel like being more spontaneous, doing things like going for a drive but not having a destination, or spending a whole day hanging out in a park and not having anything resembling plans. I want to say what I mean, and not hold anything back. I want to hang around lots of different people and have conversations that last until I ought to be asleep.

I think I am getting closer.